Some people never go crazy, What truly horrible lives they must live
-Bukowski

Like most of the others, I was a seeker, a mover, a malcontent, and at times a stupid hell-raiser. I was never idle long enough to do much thinking, but I felt somehow that my instincts were right. I shared a vagrant optimism that some of us were making real progress, that we had taken an honest road, and that the best of us would inevitably make it over the top. At the same time, I shared a dark suspicion that the life we were leading was a lost cause, that we were all actors, kidding ourselves along on a senseless odyssey. It was the tension between these two poles - a restless idealism on one hand and a sense of impending doom on the other - that kept me going
-Hunter S. Thompson

i am shy and mysterious when i say my goodbyes
when i part with the ones i’ve come to love throughout my life
when the times are miracelous, when i stop to think twice
when i sleep in the bushes next to where the treasure lies